Yes, I'm aware

Happy 2012!  Funny story: I have a large bulletin board above my desk were I have a few pictures of myself on it.  One picture happens to be of myself in high school, (a student found it and put it up...I just never took it down)  So today a student was looking at it, and asked why I had some random cheerleader stapled to my board!  I started laughing and told this student to look harder, because it was me.  Of course, I wanted to say, YUP!  I'M AWARE THAT I GOT FAT!  What can I say...I had a great time in college and just never got back into the theme of working out and eating right until this year.  So with saying that 2011 was the last fat year of my life. 

Over my winter break, which went by way too fast, I made a count down until the wedding.  Every day I have a motivational quote that I read, and how many days are left until the big day.  I'm currently 177.  I can lose 50 lbs in that amount of time right?  Well, I can say I did not gain any weight over the holidays, in fact I lost 2lbs and then this week I lost 3.1!  I know I can do this, I just need to hold myself accountable. 

My question to anyone reading this... What do you do to reward yourself?  Because I use food...and I have to stop that! 

Trim the Fat: “My life is a constant between my love of Food and...

Trim the Fat: “My life is a constant between my love of Food and...: I found this and immediately knew it was about me. I love food; I always have and probably always will. It’s my hope that someday I will...

“My life is a constant between my love of Food and not wanting to be Fat.”

I found this and immediately knew it was about me.  I love food; I always have and probably always will.  It’s my hope that someday I will have a much better relationship with food.  I grew up in a house where my mother always cooked and we always had sweets around. So why do I have so many issues with sweets and actually cooking, as an adult?  I enjoy to cook, but it’s not fun to cook for one.  Since I’ve lived alone,(for seven years) in that time, I have probably cooked for myself about twenty times for myself.  I love to eat out, it’s a simple fact, I love to eat out!  Of course, when I eat out I don’t order a salad, I order something that isn’t very healthy, and I order all the courses.  I have gotten better with ordering drinks, I now just get water.  Baby steps, baby steps.  I’m not going to dinner this weekend.  But I am going to attend two holiday parties.  So here’s to baby steps.

Eating today…Not good at all, nor did I make it to bootcamp.  And of course, I’m now afraid that I’ll get yelled out by the trainer for not going tonight!  Sorry… I’m busy, but with saying that, I know that I need to make time for myself and this diet.  I will eat better tomorrow and this weekend, life is too short to go through it unhappy and fat!

Trim the Fat: Drive Home not Thru

Trim the Fat: Drive Home not Thru: Where do I start???? I have had a few pretty GREAT days. I have cheated, but not bad, and when I have cheated I haven't let it ruin my da...

Drive Home not Thru

Where do I start????  I have had a few pretty GREAT days.   I have cheated, but not bad, and when I have cheated I haven't let it ruin my day.  In fact, when I have cheated I just get back on Jenny Craig horse. 

I find when I cheat, its right after school. So every day on my way home it goes through my mind, will I have will power or will I cheat?  So when I do drive thru, I’ve started making better cheating choices, I go to Jimmy John's I get the slim sandwich with chips.  I don't eat the whole sandwich and I don't eat all the chips, so when I’m hungry later I have the other half of the sandwich.  When I got home from bootcamp last night, I didn't have a snack or for that fact another meal or the left over sandwich. And now I'm going to evens stop the half sandwich routine next week!  It's all about cutting slowly for me not cutting off all at once.

I've been doing a great job at school also.  I went to zumba again and I love it!  (Thank you Jen for encouraging me to go)  I'm thinking about changing the days of week I go to bootcamp and go to zumba on my off days.  I would have a day or two that would overlap, though.  So here's to finally getting it! 

On another positive note: I had a doctor's appointment and I've lost 20lbs since August!  And yesterday I had 3 hours and 31 minutes of physical activity, a new high!

It wasn't worth it!

So tonight after dinner, I was feeling miserable...  I had brought a Jenny Craig meal with me, I had made the decision to eat the dinner, but I get to dinner, and it smells so good.  Dinner smelled better than it tasted, (not saying it wasn't good) it wasn't worth me feeling bad about my bad decision.  I could have the same thing with half the calories.  So today, it clicked.  I came home and didn't want to eat anything, and while eating dinner, I was drinking water in between each bite.  I have my bag packed for zumba tomorrow, and I've made plans after zumba to go to the store and walk.  I'm checking into a used treadmill or a bike.  Which is better a treadmill or a bike? 

Trim the Fat: Click it or Ticket???

Trim the Fat: Click it or Ticket???: Girl Scout Cookies… Those three words will kill me, and they almost did. I would like to thank Jennifer Northcutt for getting on me for ea...