Thursday, December 8, 2011

Trim the Fat: “My life is a constant between my love of Food and...

Trim the Fat: “My life is a constant between my love of Food and...: I found this and immediately knew it was about me. I love food; I always have and probably always will. It’s my hope that someday I will...

“My life is a constant between my love of Food and not wanting to be Fat.”

I found this and immediately knew it was about me.  I love food; I always have and probably always will.  It’s my hope that someday I will have a much better relationship with food.  I grew up in a house where my mother always cooked and we always had sweets around. So why do I have so many issues with sweets and actually cooking, as an adult?  I enjoy to cook, but it’s not fun to cook for one.  Since I’ve lived alone,(for seven years) in that time, I have probably cooked for myself about twenty times for myself.  I love to eat out, it’s a simple fact, I love to eat out!  Of course, when I eat out I don’t order a salad, I order something that isn’t very healthy, and I order all the courses.  I have gotten better with ordering drinks, I now just get water.  Baby steps, baby steps.  I’m not going to dinner this weekend.  But I am going to attend two holiday parties.  So here’s to baby steps.
Eating today…Not good at all, nor did I make it to bootcamp.  And of course, I’m now afraid that I’ll get yelled out by the trainer for not going tonight!  Sorry… I’m busy, but with saying that, I know that I need to make time for myself and this diet.  I will eat better tomorrow and this weekend, life is too short to go through it unhappy and fat!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Trim the Fat: Drive Home not Thru

Trim the Fat: Drive Home not Thru: Where do I start???? I have had a few pretty GREAT days. I have cheated, but not bad, and when I have cheated I haven't let it ruin my da...

Drive Home not Thru

Where do I start????  I have had a few pretty GREAT days.   I have cheated, but not bad, and when I have cheated I haven't let it ruin my day.  In fact, when I have cheated I just get back on Jenny Craig horse. 

I find when I cheat, its right after school. So every day on my way home it goes through my mind, will I have will power or will I cheat?  So when I do drive thru, I’ve started making better cheating choices, I go to Jimmy John's I get the slim sandwich with chips.  I don't eat the whole sandwich and I don't eat all the chips, so when I’m hungry later I have the other half of the sandwich.  When I got home from bootcamp last night, I didn't have a snack or for that fact another meal or the left over sandwich. And now I'm going to evens stop the half sandwich routine next week!  It's all about cutting slowly for me not cutting off all at once.

I've been doing a great job at school also.  I went to zumba again and I love it!  (Thank you Jen for encouraging me to go)  I'm thinking about changing the days of week I go to bootcamp and go to zumba on my off days.  I would have a day or two that would overlap, though.  So here's to finally getting it! 

On another positive note: I had a doctor's appointment and I've lost 20lbs since August!  And yesterday I had 3 hours and 31 minutes of physical activity, a new high!

Sunday, December 4, 2011

It wasn't worth it!

So tonight after dinner, I was feeling miserable...  I had brought a Jenny Craig meal with me, I had made the decision to eat the dinner, but I get to dinner, and it smells so good.  Dinner smelled better than it tasted, (not saying it wasn't good) it wasn't worth me feeling bad about my bad decision.  I could have the same thing with half the calories.  So today, it clicked.  I came home and didn't want to eat anything, and while eating dinner, I was drinking water in between each bite.  I have my bag packed for zumba tomorrow, and I've made plans after zumba to go to the store and walk.  I'm checking into a used treadmill or a bike.  Which is better a treadmill or a bike? 

Amen to that

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Trim the Fat: Click it or Ticket???

Trim the Fat: Click it or Ticket???: Girl Scout Cookies… Those three words will kill me, and they almost did. I would like to thank Jennifer Northcutt for getting on me for ea...

Click it or Ticket???

Girl Scout Cookies… Those three words will kill me, and they almost did.  I would like to thank Jennifer Northcutt for getting on me for eating the cookies!  I did have a few cookies and then gave the rest to my students.   I was having an off day, meaning I was feeling down and I didn’t really know why.   During my pity party, a Jen started to talk to me about when it just clicked for her during her resent weight loss.  I want that ‘click’ to happen to me.  So in order to force that, I’m going to take the plug and try on a wedding dress this weekend.
I keep beating myself up when I cheat.  Then while I’m beating myself up, to comfort myself I eat!  What is wrong with me???  So my question tonight is… While you are having a pity party what do you do to comfort yourself? 
While I’m typing this, I’m watching the Millionaire Matchmaker reunion, and Patty Signer looks awesome.  She did say she had her eyes done, but she hits the gym three days a week.  I go to boot camp three days a week, but on the off days I need to go to the gym!  So I’m going to enlist once again a friend to be my gym buddy.  I just want to get on the treadmill and walk.  I hate going around the track, maybe I could do the track!  Or let’s be honest I hate to leave once I get there.  So I’m thinking I need a treadmill or a stationary bike. 

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Trim the Fat: Almost There

Trim the Fat: Almost There: So today was an okay eating day. I just need to stay out of cafeteria at school. I did have a salad for lunch, but then went and got ice...

Almost There

So today was an okay eating day.  I just need to stay out of cafeteria at school.  I did have a salad for lunch, but then went and got ice-cream.  On my way home, I did not stop at some fast food place.  But I did go out for dollar taco’s…  So I’m back in it tonight, and I’m not snacking (or at least I haven’t yet) 
I would like to say THANK YOU to Stephen Robertson and Diane Discher for the great suggestions when it comes to eating.  I’ve already started with Diane’s ideas:  I’m making a bored bucket, I’m going to be writing down things to do to keep me busy—things I would normally put off or not do (which is a lot) some items I have so far are: extra work outs, organizing my closets, cleaning my bath tub, working a head at school.  So when I’m feeling bored I am going to get into my bored bucket and pull out an activity to do, instead of eating.  What do you do to stay out of the fridge?like do 10 push
Ups, or 10 sit-ups and wrote all these little tasks down on pieces of paper and put them in a jar so whenever I felt bored I had to take a piece of paper from the jar and I had to do whatever it said. If I was still bored I would do another. It was helpful - often to avoid some of the things in the jar I would come up with other things to do and then I didn't need the jar to distract me and make me be productive.
like do 10 push
Ups, or 10 sit-ups and wrote all these little tasks down on pieces of paper and put them in a jar so whenever I felt bored I had to take a piece of paper from the jar and I had to do whatever it said. If I was still bored I would do another. It was helpful - often to avoid some of the things in the jar I would come up with other things to do and then I didn't need the jar to distract me and make me be productive.like do 10 push
Ups, or 10 sit-ups and wrote all these little tasks down on pieces of paper and put them in a jar so whenever I felt bored I had to take a piece of paper from the jar and I had to do whatever it said. If I was still bored I would do another. It was helpful - often to avoid some of the things in the jar I would come up with other things to do and then I didn't need the jar to distract me and make me be productive.
I’ve reading lots of blogs on people who also are struggling with weight loss, or where struggling.   And shocking it’s the same story: Woman is fat, tired of being fat, crash diets, does all the trendy diets, and then one day saw themselves really saw themselves.  This just happened to me; I was standing in line with my oldest sister and looked at the two of use in a mirror.  WOW!  I knew I was fat but dang; it looks like I ate her and put on a Jennifer mask with blonde highlights. 
My question tonight is; when you picture yourself doing something what do you look like?  I see myself as a college freshman. 


Determination

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Peace with Food

I don't think I will ever be at peace with food, I mean I LOVE food!  I eat when I'm happy, when I'm bored, when I'm mad, when I'm sad, or worse when I think I should be hungry.  I eat whenever I feel a type of emotion, and anyone who has ever had a conversation with me knows I'm a pretty emotional person!  So anyone who has struggled with being an emotional eater, what helps you? 

My goal this week is this: I need to come to peace with food.  I need to find something else to reward myself with or make me feel better, because food cannot do any of that for me!  So today, I'm going to start a new hobby, walking.  I enjoy, I've been doing it for around 28 years, so I'm pretty good at it.  And I did buy an awesome ski coat for a football game last year, which could double as a bad ass walking coat.  So today I finally download the runtastic app.  I typically walk at park, but it's not exactly close to where I live, so I'm going to walk in my neighborhood, it does have sidewalks.  The one good thing about the park, one lap around is a mile.  But I'm not sure if they shovel it during the winter. 

On another note, I had an okay eating day, not great but bad.  I did go to boot camp!  The bad news or good news is depending on how you look at it, I was moved into the hard class.  I feel like I don't get the same work out in the hard class as I did in the easy class.  I know this sounds strange, but in the smaller class we did a lot of crunches, etc.  In the hard class it's full out boot camp stuff, with running... LOTS of running, bear crawls, and lots of other exercisers that I can't remember.  With the easy class, I never gave up, worked and worked, but the hard class I find myself giving up or not doing things full out.  So I plan on going back on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.  Forget this Saturday morning stuff.  I like to sleep in!  Although someone in the hard class did tell me it takes about a month to do everything full out.  I found myself saying out loud, WILL POWER.  It got me through the drill.
Change your diet        Bahaha love this, I'm buying letters tonight!        Not hungry

Monday, November 28, 2011

Nothing new...

I have tried to write this several times tonight, and nothing is coming to me... Writer's block???  Overal an okay day with eating.  I did great during the day, but I came home from school and I ate crap, went Jimmy Johns (it was slim though).  I find that some days it's hard during school, and some days it's hard after school.  Tomorrow I'm going to bootcamp, and I won't want to eat before, so I will make it a plan not to out!  This is my December motivation.  And please tell me what motivates you, because I need something to light a fire under my butt, you would think getting married would!

I promise.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Day 2...Of being back.

Well today was another good day.  I had an overall good day with eating and even went to the Zumba!  Man I was never the star of the show in HS with dancing, but dang the Zumba was more than this 28 year old could take!  I was definitely the uncoordinated one there.
As for eating, I stuck to Jenny Craig for most of the day.  It does get hard at school, when they have cakes, brownies, and cookies all around.  I try never to go downstairs in the teachers’ lounge because that’s where the food typically hangs out…  Tomorrow will be the challenge I’m going to a basketball game and I’m going out for drinks.  So hopefully I will walk enough to work off the calories of the pre-thanksgiving drinks… 
My motivation this week is my health, my future wedding dress, and pictures.

Pinned Image
This is not me, but hey it does motivate me!  And maybe I'll get to be the person on the Jenny Craig posters along with all the famous people!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Trim the Fat: I'm back

Trim the Fat: I'm back: Well since I’ve been gone a lot has happened to me, to get in my motivation… I got engaged. So that means I will be getting married this J...

I'm back

Well since I’ve been gone a lot has happened to me, to get in my motivation… I got engaged.  So that means I will be getting married this June.  As I’m typing this the song, Here Comes the Bride, is in my head and the lyrics ‘all fat and wide’ is what keeps replaying.  I do not want this song to be true of this bride! 
What am I doing???  I’m going to bootcamp, although this week, I won’t be going at all, I typically go three times a week.  This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, and I haven’t given up.  (maybe because I’m afraid if I don’t show-up Brain will yell at me) So needless to say I’m moving, which right now is number one.  I’m also going to attempt to get my big butt to Zumba that a friend of my mine at school is putting on.  I did walking competition with school, not sure how I did but I did get a gift card and was told that I was one of the people that walked over 26 miles.  As for my eating…I will talk about that tomorrow.   I’m still working at the Jenny Craig.
I’m going to try to continue to walk everywhere.  I was doing a great job in September to walk about three miles a day, but I need to step that up and walk five miles a day.  So I’m looking for a walking partner, I’m afraid I’ll have to join a gym to get a walking buddy, and to walk indoors.     

Monday, July 25, 2011

Trim the Fat: Motivation: yes, I would like some

Trim the Fat: Motivation: yes, I would like some: "“People say motivate doesn’t last well neither does bathing----that’s why we recommend it daily” Every day I need to find something differen..."

Motivation: yes, I would like some

“People say motivate doesn’t last well neither does bathing----that’s why we recommend it daily”
Every day I need to find something different to motivate myself not to go to McDonald’s, or Wendy’s…  Today it’s you, maybe someone is actually reading this.
How do you motivate yourself?  I recently have lost all motivation. I ate out twice today and one time was at the Melting Pot. So I had cheese and chocolate for dinner.  While it was very cheap I’ll have to buy new clothes because I will not fit into the ones I own. 
I try to motivate myself by hanging up pictures of myself when I was thin, and even rewarding myself for losing weight (but that’s an oxymoron, because I reward myself with food)  I even had a friend text me about using paperclips as a way to measure weight loss. 
I did weigh in on Friday, and it was also less than motivating…  I am going on vacation this week and will be walking like crazy, but I’ll also be eating out every meal.  So I sending this question out into space what is your motiviation?

Monday, July 18, 2011

I take it off in public…

Lost 2.6 this past week!  I’m feeling great about it.  Hopefully this week I’ll be as successful.
This past weekend was fast and crazy!  First off, I can’t remember the last time I got home at 4am… The weekend started off with a bachorlette party on Friday at Funky Town and then on Saturday it was a wrap up with NKOTBSB.  And that leads me to 'taking it off in public'.
I’m going to be honest I cheated all weekend, big time cheating!  It started out with Friday having dinner at Kelso’s and then having adult beverage all night at Funky Town.  Then Saturday, I needed some greasy food so it was on to chubby’s for lunch (I which then had a crap food, and dessert) and then for dinner gross pizza.  So at the concert I had more adult beverages.  I figured I was burning off the drinks as I was drinking them because I was dancing.  I’m glad I wore my arm band because I had over two hours of activity and 13989 steps on Saturday alone!  So that has to be a good thing.
After the concert my friends and I were waiting on our ride to pick us up, so we decided to go get Burger King at the BK bar.  As I’m sitting there enjoying my chicken sandwich the lady sitting next to me made some comment about my bodymedia monitor.  (I can’t remember what she said…) I go on to tell her I always wear it and that tonight was a good night because of all the dancing.  “Well, I take mine off in public”  I didn’t have much to say to that.  I wanted to ask her, well when do you wear your monitor, because I’m in the public every day?   I did try to wear it up on my arm so my sleeves cover it, but it tends to fall down. 
So to the lady who, ‘takes it off in public’ I’m proud to be losing weight, I’m not proud to be fat.  So I’m going to wear my monitor every day, wear it proud, and answer all the questions from strangers.   
Goal for today: get my steps in, because it's crazy hot.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I'm poor because I'm fat...

Yes, it's true, I'm poor because I spend all of my money on food, and diet programs.  I would say the gym but when I do go, I just pay the $7 every time.  So today after I walked I went to Wendy's to reward myself...  Yes, I know what I just typed.  So that is going to be my one meal for the day. 

Like I said earlier, I'm poor because I'm fat.  Well, I spend between $60-$80 on food to JC every week, but then I don't eat it.  Now it is frozen so I don't always spend that much.  What get's me, is that I love to eat out!  So I'm spending double money.   I love working out with my trainer, she does motivate me, I just wish I could afford to work out with her every day.  Once again because I'm fat that means I'm poor so I can't afford her every day...  Should I buy a treadmill?  And if I do, where could get a nice used one?

Goal for today: No more eating out...

Goal for tomorrow: I do have a plans to go out tomorrow, so my plan is to not drink, well maybe just one drink, and not to eat crap.  For example the restuarant has fried cheese at it, while it's probably most amazing form of cheese, it's also the worst for me.  But I will be dancing so that will be my cardio for tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Is Will Power on the menu?

Well…yesterday was less than a success.  It’s so hot outside I don’t even want go outside for a walk. Walking outside when it’s so hot is not fun for me because I can’t breathe, I have developed asthma (another wonderful side effect from becoming fat).  So yesterday my cardio was walking around Nebraska Furniture Mart.  And to be honest it’s not really cardio because I never did get my heart rate up, I was too busy looking at stuff. 
Will Power. I don’t have it.  Have you ever met someone with will power?  These people are typically skinny, involved in everything, and are great at everything they do!  Is it too late for me to become one of these “Super” people?  Is will power something you are born with?  Was this a class I didn’t take in college?  OR is it something entirely different, such as self-discipline?   So how do you get will power?
(Self-discipline is tomorrow’s blog)
Update: I did not get all of my steps in only 5905 when it was all said and done, and as for sleep…well I’m an awful sleeper. I’m to get 8 hours; I average 5.5 at 77%.  What does this mean? I’m not really sleeping, I’m lying in bed but I’m in that strange in between sleep land. I'll put it this way: I sleep with the TV on and if I’m not in deep sleep and it turns off I wake up.  Sleep is a big part of weight loss. I lost 500 calories just in my sleep!  I did however make my minutes of physical activity (45 minutes a day).  As for calories consumed, I was over, which goes back to will power.  I’m to have only 1200 calories a day.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Holding Myself Accountable...

I get to wear this awesome monitor every day.  I highly recommend wearing one, its called bodymedia.  Now, I get lots of questions from complete strangers and everyone else in-between, "What is that?"  Basically it looks like the second generation i-pod nano.  This monitor is pretty cool!  It tells me the following things: Calories burned, Calories Consumed, Calorie Balance, Physical Activity, Steps Taken, and Sleep Duration.  The monitor gives me a recommendation of how many steps I need to take, how many calories I've burned, etc.  So twice a day I like to plug it in to see where if I'm at meeting all of my goals.  You are probably asking yourself how the program gets its goals.  Well, I had to tell the program how much weight I want to lose a week and what my goal weight is. Of course I do have to tell the program what I had to eat that day.  And let me tell you, once you see how many calories are things you totally re-think your afternoon snack!

8,000 steps in one day, it doesn't sound like a lot, but it is.  I am a teacher so during the school year I'm up walking around, but its summer now... I'm sitting on my fat ass enjoying the soaps and HBO.  Yesterday, I actually walked 7,304, while it's not a record it was better than the day before.  And shockingly after I logged my food today, I was on a weight lose trend!  While this is great I know my counselor from JC (Jenny Craig) is going to be calling me and asking if I'm eating good... And the answer is NO.

So today is a new day, I am going to eat my JC food for all of my meals and my snacks (no cheating).  I'm also going to write down what I've had to eat over the past few days.  After all aren't I blogging to hold myself accountable? 

Monday, July 11, 2011

Baby Steps

First off I’m not a writer.  Anybody who has ever read an email from me knows this, I’m the world’s worst speller and I leave out words.  But I will proof read this blog!  That is the one promise I can make.
I just watched the movie Julie/Julia, and like most people it has inspired me to write my own blog.  Since Julie’s days of blogging began in 2002, blogs have since grown, so I’m sure I will not get the response she did.  While Julie’s blog was about her journey through the Julia Child’s cookbook, mine is just the opposite. This is the blog about what happens after you eat Julia Child’s food for years…
My weight gain journey starts like many others…COLLEGE! While college is not totally to blame, it was the start.  My food groups for the past few years have been Fast Food (I don’t discrimate, I love them all), bacon, pasta (really any carbs will do) and chocolate.  So why was I surprised when I started gaining weight?  My favorite food groups would not do this to me, we were having a love affair.
"Name the Diet" is a game I like to play.   I can guarantee that I’ve paid lots of $ for the diet, and then I gave up a month into the it.  I do believe that diets do not fail, but motivation falls people.  I am not motivated.  I’m currently doing the Jenny Craig diet, I’m not even finished paying this off, and I’m ready to give up!  Well my hopes is that if I make my struggle with weight loss public maybe that will hold me accountable besides the money factor.  While I do have a very strong support system, like many people I'm failing.
I will not be sharing with you my weight, but I will share with you my eating habits, my progress on my weekly weigh-ins, and my lack of excerise.  I promise to update once a day or at the least every other day. So here goes nothing, my first of hopefully many blogs.